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[They sit in silence for what I assume seems like a long while, but is probably actually more like a minute or two before Rogue mans up.

She lifts her face, and it's easy to find his eyes. They're glowing in the darkness, after all. And she stares right at them, defiantly bare of her defenses, and doesn't look away.]

I was mad at you. I'm still mad at you. But I had no call ta be that careless, an' for that, I apologize.

Edited 2012-08-12 19:29 (UTC)

[It surprises him a little bit once she meets his eyes and speaks up, but he just keeps his gaze steady. And in answer to the apology, he gives a small nod, knowing that the glow of his eyes will give the motion away. Silent signal of acceptance of the apology. He gets that she's still angry, and he gets why. It explains the provocation into throwing him, especially if she hadn't realized the closet moved again.

He's silent for a moment after that before he answers softly.]

Can't really blame you for still bein' mad.

[If she wants to talk about it, then it would probably be for the best, although he isn't too keen on the idea either. But if she'd rather leave it alone, he'll leave it at that.]

[She held his gaze for a moment more and then slid her own to the side.

Can't really blame her. Ha.

There was a long, long stretch of silence before she couldn't take it anymore.]

Do you have any idea what you did ta me? What kind of a game was this for ya, that you had to mess with me?

[She muttered a curse.

I trusted you.]

[She still thinks it was just a game. And if he's honest with himself, it's not really a surprise. With his reputation and background, it's no small wonder she's thinking that.

Especially considering that it's... well... her. He knows how much her mutation weighs on her, and he definitely didn't help anything with this whole mess. With a shake of the head, he tries to catch her eye again. Being open and honest isn't something he's particularly good at, but he wants to make sure he has eye contact if he can. The truth tends to shine through.]

It wasn't a game, Rogue. I know it's not any kinda excuse, but it's the truth.

[Not that he really thinks she's going to believe him, which is a frustrating thought. But he walked himself right into it. He runs a hand through his hair absently.]

I shoulda told you.

[She doesn't want to meet his eyes. Not only because she's afraid of what she'll see, but because she really, really doesn't want him to know how much this hurt her. She'd felt drawn to him when they were enemies, felt connected to him despite his betrayal, and had almost let herself believe, really believe, that he saw past her mutation, past her defenses, and despite knowing how much of a mess she was - she'd let herself believe that... that he wanted her. Just her. Not because of what she was, not because of what she could add, or because somewhere deep down she was a "good person" who he had to save - just her.

And then she'd seen him in love with someone else. Promised to someone else. Someone beautiful and competent. Someone she could never compete with, because she was someone he could touch.

And so what else could it be but a game?

Despite her best intentions, Rogue's gaze slid to his after his denial. There. He said it again. The truth.

You've got so many lies twisted up inside of you, Remy LeBeau, how would you even know? No wonder you're convincing.

But it was when he confessed that he should have told her that she scoffed, raising a hand in exasperation.]

Told me what? Ya think just lettin' me know you're engaged would make datin' you okay? Gawd.

[She might be a monster, but she's not that kind of monster.

She might be untouchable, but even she wanted something real.]

Edited 2012-08-13 23:22 (UTC)

That's not what I'm sayin'.

[Not that it would've made it okay, but she at least deserved to know. Although really, in the end, it probably wouldn't have helped anything at all. He'd still be the womanizer for being attracted to her, and she'd still be angry with him and shutting him out.

LeBeau, why do you do this. You're only hurting everyone involved.

He's silent for a moment, mulling over what to say. Getting into the details means digging up all kinds of things he'd prefer to forget, but. He's already gotten into it. He wanted a chance to explain before, and now, here it is.]

I don't even know if the engagement's still on. [Although that probably won't help much, but there it is.] Sure didn't seem like it last I was in town.

[And didn't he seem depressed about it, too. His poor little heart, just broken all to pieces. She wonders how long it took him to him to move on, or if it was canceled because his fiance found him with someone else. Hell.

She exhaled in disgust, swallowing down the urge to rip into him, saying just that. And doing that, no matter how he deserved it, would just show him how much she was still hurting and probably slide right off that snake's skin of his.]

Sure seems ta me like that's something you'd know for certain, 'fore you hold it up as any kind of excuse.

[Yeah, it isn't much of an excuse, but it's the facts. And the facts aren't much prettier, really. He's still a damned idiot, no matter what angle he comes from. But she met the Boudreaux family - albeit not Belladonna - and he feels like she might at least slightly get a picture of the background from his side from that.]

Didn't get much chance to find out 'fore I ended up here. But they way they were shootin' at us don't exactly make me t'ink the chances are too good that the arrangement's still on.

[She frowns at that, making a connection she hadn't quite made before.]

...what are you talkin' about?

[Well, that's a step in the intended direction.]

The whole t'ing was s'posed to stop the fightin' between those Ripper fools an' the T'ieves Guild. [And that was pretty much the only reason he'd agreed to it.] Dunno 'bout you, but it didn't look to me like they were gearin' up to play nice.

[Her frown deepens, contrasting what he said with what she saw.]

You're goin' ta sit there an' tell me that after all that, what you had goin' on with that girl was an arranged marriage?

We dated on an' off, but that wasn't why we were engaged. Me an' her, we jus' so happened to fit right into my old man's plans.

[Remy suspects Jean-Luc had more grandiose plans than he'd ever let on, since it would mean getting an elbow in on assassin territory. Whatever the plan had been, he was beginning to suspect he'd never find out. Although to be fair, he's not sure he wants to know. Being used by Jean-Luc was hardly new for Remy, but dragging Belladonna into it too? Not wanting to marry her aside, the girl was a close friend and that sort of thing stung.

As he goes on, his eyes glow a little brighter as his tone hollows.]

I bought into it all, t'inkin' it'd solve everythin'.

[Rogue doesn't have much of a positive opinion of Jean-Luc. But she knew that Remy had cared about him and his family enough to go to extremes to rescue his father. Bringing the X-Men down on his back wasn't a small risk, no matter how arrogant he was.

Unless, of course, he'd honestly believed they wouldn't come for her, that they'd think she'd run away. And she couldn't blame him if he had. That had been a dark time.

But this was just too pat.]

Yeah, it looked like you were really sufferin'.

[Pause a beat.]

Just when was this "arrangement" supposed ta take place?

[Were you engaged before or after you kidnapped her?]

[Okay, he deserved that jab. But he'll just move on past it.

And yeah, that grave just keeps getting deeper... He knows how this will sound, and. Well, honestly, it is what it is. It'll sound like exactly what it was: a tremendous trainwreck of a situation.]

Originally? Before I left town. [Before Magneto. Before getting tangled up with the X-Men. Before the kidnapping incident and anything else.]

T'ings were fallin' apart when I left. Didn't get much chance to find out how much 'fore wakin' up here.

[And a major part of that was not stopping to look back until he went to New Orleans with Rogue, which. Also looks horrible, probably.]

This whole time...

[She said it softly, but she hadn't meant to say it out loud at all. He'd been engaged the whole time.

The whole. time.

From the moment he handed her the card that blew up in her face to the moment that he handed her a card that she kept as a mark of - something - he'd been engaged.]

Son of a--

[But trying to expand her view beyond herself, he'd - he'd what, he'd gotten engaged and run?

She wanted to shut down, but she'd come this far, so she lifts her gaze to his and asks with blatant incredulity.]

What the hell?

[This whole time. That tone hits him like a punch, but it somehow manages to make him more intent on meeting her gaze. This is really the bottom line of it, at least in terms of background.]

Never said I was proud of it. [Lord, is that putting it lightly.] It was leave town or give Julien a chance at carvin' me up. He never was keen on the weddin' idea, but he got worse about it over time.

[After Henri was hurt, there was no telling how much worse it would have gotten if he'd stayed. He didn't much care to find out. Julien was completely unhinged. The upper limits of what the man might do were probably much higher than anyone would realize.

Hell, she'd zapped him once. She probably knows full well just how crazy that guy was.]

'Fore I left, he an' Marius were callin' for my head. Judgin' by how they were when I went back, that didn't change much. Maybe I shouldn't be jumpin' to conclusions, but that contract ain't gonna work if they kill me first.

[And there's the heart of his logic. She'll probably still be angry, still be hurt, but this whole time wasn't meant to do any of that.]

[She did know. Julien was twenty pounds of crazy crammed into five pound sack. And having him out for your blood was not small joke. Remy was a Thief, but the Rippers were Assassins.

And she didn't exactly give Jean-Luc credit enough to think he'd stick his neck out for the best interests of his son. That, she knew, that moment in the boat when they'd talked about their adopted parents, she knew, she knew that hadn't been a lie.

He left to save his life. She can understand that. She'd done similarly when she'd joined the Brotherhood. She can't fault him for that, not when he said he'd gotten into this in order to bring peace. And she almost, almost believed him - he wasn't exactly the type to settle down. And she'd seen what he'd do in order to protect his family.

Her eyes lowered, her voice is also low, and husky with some undefined emotion.]

You did what you thought was right by you.

[It didn't make things better.]

[It shouldn't sting so much to hear that tone.]

Doesn't mean it was right by everyone else.

[It kept his skin safe, and Henri's and Tantie Mattie's, but he'd be the first to admit that it wasn't a perfect solution. Then again, his solutions rarely fit any kind of ideal. Wrong thing for the right reasons, she'd said once. Even that might be putting it a bit too kindly.]

[No, it doesn't.

But she doesn't need to reinforce that. If he's just saying it, nothing she can do will make an impact. And if he means it, then she's not the kind of person to rub his face in it.

She sighed, doing her best to emotionally withdraw. She'd opened up far too much in asking him this, and now she was raw and hurting again. She tries to shift the topic from this, now. She can't justify his choices. That's not any kind of position she wants to be in.]

Naw. You didn't make me any promises.

[You were her enemy. And then you were something else. She'd thought you'd wanted her. She'd been a fool. She can't blame him for that. Can't really even blame him for keeping this mess to himself, it just shows him for more of what he is - screwed up. And that didn't help his game.]

I put somethin' on this that wasn't there. That's on me.

[I thought you wanted me.]

Edited 2012-08-16 02:48 (UTC)

[No, no, no. This wasn't on her. And if she thinks she was just making things out to be something they weren't, then she can't be farther from the truth.

Granted, he does not have the best track record with the truth, and she knows that. Which doesn't help anything. But he keeps his tone firm, trying to make his point go across.]

No, it isn't. I meant everythin' I said before.

[And after telling her about the entire fiasco with Bella, he hopes she can spot that he's not switching from truth into a lie. There's no point in transitioning after that much honesty.]

[She scoffs, lightly, and although she knows she should disengage, get up and open the door and try to leave again, she lifts her eyes to his in challenge.]

Which time?

[Because honestly, right now she's not sure.]

When I said it wasn't a game.

[That, and asking her out, or any number of flattering things he's said, but that's the most important one.]

[There really is no verbal response to that which isn't blue and possibly referencing defenestration.

So Rogue just bumps her head back against the wall behind her, shutting her eyes.]

Sure.

[That bump just makes him shake his head. There probably isn't any convincing her today, is there. The odds are probably good that it will take a long time to get it through to her. And she's probably nearing the end of her rope for dealing with him for one day.

After a moment of thoughtful silence, he sighs and stands. Gives a stretch. If she doesn't want to talk about it anymore, he'll switch subjects.]

Maybe we oughta see if we've moved.

[The closet hasn't been standing still so far, so it must have moved again, right?]

[Rogue is tired and drained and hurting. Her voice, therefore, reflects a certain amount of hollowness.]

Suit yourself.

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